Writing Problem...

I'm really disappointed that I don't blog as much anymore. I'm trying to get back into it though... I remember on myspace when I had control myself not to post MORE than one blog a day. Now I'm lucky if I'm able to post even ONE in a month! The frustrating thing is that I have a lot to say... all the time... but I'm afraid to put it into words where someone might read it. Honestly, a lot of the reason I don't post anymore is because I'm afraid of saying something that doesn't line up with Scripture. I really don't want to state my "opinions" because "opinions" are wayy too common these days. There's too many opnions and not enough Scripture. But if I write about Scripture, I want to make sure I understand the context and meaning of it first... something I've been learning for the past few months. To be honest I'm actually very paranoid about what I say... It's pretty ridiculous. I started my last blog at about 10:30 or 11:00 last night... didn't finish it till about 2:45am. It's not that it was a tough subject or that I couldn't think anymore; I'm just very careful about what I say and how I say it. I don't even know how many blogs I've started but haven't finished this year... they're all just sitting there saved as "drafts". The thing with words is that you can't take them back once you put them out there. That's why when I speak to people I'm either being the quiet one or the one who's taking forever to say something. Haha and I feel bad but that's also why I'll start to say something but change my mind and say "never mind...". Writing (even though I LOVE it) doesn't come easy to me anymore.

But even with all that said, that's still not the only reason I don't post anymore. A lot of it actually has to do with time. I'd be willing to sit at the computer every night for four hours until I'm able to post something, but I don't have that kind of time anymore. I'm out most of the day and by the time I come home I'm too tired to think.

And I'm aware that not a lot of (if even ANY) people probably read all my posts... and to be honest... I'm totally okay with that!

Now that I've said all that, whether there was a point to it or not... I have just tricked myself into posting another blog... which makes me one step closer to getting back into the habit! ; D