October 11th: The "Change My Life" Day

I just read what the weather's supposed to be like this week, and sadly, that was the most exciting thing that's happened to me in the past few days. It's apparently supposed to rain on Wednesday and Thursday! : D

Anyway...

I couldn't sleep last night. Not so much couldn't, but more just didn't feel like it. Yesterday around 1am I realized that I am where I was exactly one year ago today... and that is not a good thing.

At around 8pm tonight it will be exactly one year since I went on that camping trip that changed my life, and I am quite disappointed with where things have ended up since then. I feel like someone hit the "Recall" button on the remote and took me back to the same channel I thought I was leaving behind.
Now, October 10th, 2008 was when I got to the campsite; but October 11th was the night that actually changed my life. All it took was a little "bonfire testimony time" with a group of friends.
Since then the biggest thing I think I've learned was: Don't take your trust out of God and into someone else for even a second.
After that camping trip I felt I finally had a good grip on my trust in God to heal me, but the second I found an easier way to "heal" me, I put my trust in that instead.
The power of healing is not in us and is not in others; It's ALL in God. I spent a year trying to be healed MY way, yet I'm just as or even more broken now than I was before.

I don't mean for this to sound negative or to say "Don't trust people.", I just want this to be read as a warning to those who tend to put their trust in people more than they do in God.
I don't see any of this as a "punishment" for not trusting God to heal me this past year, I truly do just believe my "healing" didn't work out for me because only God is fully capable of healing me. He's not punishing me, He's just simply trying to get my attention and show me that He really does want the best for me, and that only HE can offer that.
Well, lesson learned, God. On October 11th this year I am going to start all over; just like I did last year on that night. But this time... I trust NO ONE but God to heal me from my past AND NOW this year's damage too.

Heal me, God,... I'm all Yours. : )