Lack Power, Gain Faith : )

Today was my first time ever shooting a real gun! : )
And going shooting today made me realize something:
I loved the power I held in my hands today, yet I know I really shouldn't have that power because I don't completely understand how to use it and what kind of damage I'm capable of doing with it.
Though, that's not just with a gun, of course. That applies with all different kinds of power. Today I realized that I don't really enjoy embracing power as a thing of mine. I don't seek power. And I think that's what makes some people's walk with God a little different; stronger in some areas than other areas in their faith.
And I honestly think that it's my lack of desire for power that helps me trust in God and His ways more.

I don't know, for the past year I've felt a little down on myself for never wanting to be in control (and in some cases, yes, being in control is a good thing), but now I'm actually glad that I don't desire to be in control of everything. I don't desire power. I would rather the power be in the hands of someone Greater, someone who knows what they're doing and understands the power they're in control of.

I would much rather give all power to God than to embrace it for myself and risk damaging innocent lives. I care too much about the people around me to take such power that doesn't even belong to me. If God places a certain kind of power in my hands, I will gladly use it in the best way I possibly can; but after today, I realized I do NOT desire power, and now I can see why that could be a good thing.

I'm up for defending myself in any situation I have to, and I will accept to take control of what GOD hands me... but I will not seek something that isn't meant for me to posses. ; )

ANYWAY... Shooting was fun, but now I have a new adventure to go on in just hours ahead of me...
Disneyland! : D